Monday, April 9, 2012


uncertainty that feeling is killing me!!!!!! I feel like im moving forward but it look like im taking a million  steps backwards . I really wanna do this for myself! and nobody else . i wanna feel like i worth something . like i can be myself no matter what the situations im in. plss ya Allah only u know what's in my heart , what is pure , and what is gonna kill me. every single day i seen the faces of the ppl that i care the most , but not  even one of them even want to look my way . i try to be strong , i am tying to be that person they thought i were . but i wish only time will heal this scar . i surely hope i can be that person i hope they'll all still love . 

Sunday, March 25, 2012


I'm trying to to my best in achieving what I want in life. But there are to many things getting on my way!!! ya ALLAH kuatkanlah hambamMu ini untuk menempuhi hari yg Akan mendtg.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Life as I know it

Life lost , love found, lover cheats, friend argue, but no matter what I'm gonna always be here standing in the same spot that u left US hanging without any decision ...... Not hope but sure that u will remember the time that I told u that no matter what happens or even u hate me I'll always be a friend that never judge but always say the truth even when it hurts... Not afraid to pull u back up when u are at your worst , and when u at your happiest will  stand from afar and watch u enjoying that moment with the same people that never by your side when u needed them the most , and I'm ok with that . And now you got what u need u are the happiest person in the world ...... But u never ever bother to even text me and say hi, I don't want u to say thank u... I just wanna u to say that I was your friend too ..... 
And now KARMA has played it part once Again.... U come 2'me with 1001 problems and not one of are mine hunny ....... 
But I'll not the kind of person that holds big knife on my hand... Waitin' to stab your back, that such a wuss . 
And know that everything ARE ok for u ... I will take thAt step back and let u enjoy it with your Friends again 
And honestly mo hart feeling baby 
I am what I am no one will ever succeed to ever make me feel bad about myself .... Ce' la vie I'm gonna keep on smiling and what most important is my friendship for u has no boundaries I will always be here no matter what happens .

Thursday, June 16, 2011

I'm not like u

Yes I don't act like most people. Because for me normal is boring I like to be slightly diffrent than u. I'm as real as I can be I'm blunt, straight forward and most importantly I'm easy going, if u wanna be my friend take me as I am no bull shit I mention this to much ' I don't like talking about people behind their backs if I wanna say something I'll say it to u im not going around asking people about it i will get it straight from the horses mouth yes even though u not talking about me I just don't like it . we as human being has no fucking right to jugde other people so don't sit around me and whispering about other people ( im totally not a' makcik kewpoh ok) kalaula boleh saya bagi akak - akak semua paham. Then kalau nk tegur saya boleh tak cakap terus dgn saya tak perlu bisik- bisik Kat org sebelah awak tu saya ni jenis org yg takan terasa la akak oii saya Akan buat taktau je paham!!!! parents saya tk pernah ajar jadi org yg pengecut ok tk payah nk try2 bagi saya terasa ok 'mak tak kesah la nok ' so be what u wanna be ok. I can handle critics in fact I'll salute u for having the guts to tell it to my face!!! That showed what kind of a person u really are jgnla buat perangai kampong kat KL ni ok it's zoo ugly la . chill don't jump to every noise that I make !! Yea sometime I do things just to see how u react to it and it so damn funny la hemmm the things u don't know about me will shock u haishhh well ce' la vie Tata
For now till my next mumbling .... Ok love the life u live people

Friday, April 22, 2011

what if i never got a chance to feel that kind of feeling ever again......................
what if it was never meant to be
what if i was gonna ever feel again
what if all of what THEY been saying about me is really true ( and why  i never give a fuck about what they been saying is simply because i come to terms with it  or because i already knew about this)

How am i ever gonna know that that feeling ever gonna come ............................
sometimes it just felt like the whole world is moving , but i'm standing still ... watching everything pass through me arrggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why do i keep thinking about this shiT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why can people just LET ME BE!!!!! im comfortable  in my own skin and yes i dont care about what u think soooooo  just let me be

Sunday, April 10, 2011


emptiness has been a fren of mine ..... living with the feeling of emptiness and don't belong is like breathing to me

life sometimes can be cruel to you but i learned if let it get to me i'l be totally insane
so  i numb myself  doing  all things at once  not to ever think what people of me stop try to make people understand me...because sometimes i don't even gets me  my head is swimming with all kind of thought
i'm trying slowly to take care of me
i don't want anymore drama in my life right now
it will be alot more easier if people just let be be me!!!!
because in life if we keep on trying to pleased other people our lives will be a total let down
because the truth is ........ the is no fucking way we can do that
there's always gonna a critic some where gonna let u down no matter what ...
and yes i don't like to talk about people behind their back that a fucking wuss
if i got something to tell to u I'll say it right to ur face dude no drama
hrmm i think i wanna do something new im gonna do a video blog  heheh

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye

Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole 'in love' thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinnin' 'round
And deep inside my tears I'll drown
I'm losin' grip, what's happenin'?
I strayed from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life

Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'Cause it's hurtin' me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more

I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

How did I get here with you? I'll never know
I never meant to let it get so personal
And after all I tried to do, stay away from lovin' you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show, you won't see me cry
in my lifetime.........